As i am writing this blog right now a part of me is still concerned if ya’ll like reading to what i write and if it has any significance or not?
Seeking validation from people or a constant urge to please them has been one of my flawed charcteristic that has been troubling me lately. Everytime i post a picture on instagram i simply spend an hour or so thinking if people would like it or not let alone the impact of the amount of likes and comments i receive on the picture. Many a times i resist myself from speaking in public fearing if my opinion will be rejected. All of it sums up to me suppressing my own voice and my original self.
I always want people to like me and make me feel belonged but as a matter of fact this cannot not be the case everytime. I craved external validation like candy but this may not be always sweet and accessible.
To counter this i have made it a point to keep journaling about what i feel about myself everday. It will eventually help me evaluate my growth. Also, i have been trying to stop compairing myself to others and accept my unique self. I have started prioritizing my self and my goals. I have normalised it to be always crticizing myself. After all it keeps you growing right? This shall keep us going and growing.